from winter to spring

This would be note to always remind myself over my determination... I don't want to forget this and therefore, I am writing this...

Waking up as early as 6am in the morning is definitely so not me if you know me well enough. Many would be surprise to find me awake so early because unless I am extremely motivated looking forward to something that awaits, or I am burning the midnight oil, I would have slept through the countless numbers of alarm clocks.

With two days remaining, this would probably be the EARLIEST day I've gotten up in the past 20 odd days of my holiday back here! Anyhow, happily I put on the dress I've picked for the day. Since I am leaving already, I've picked all the dresses in which I wanted to wear for the next two days! After 20 odd days, I am only dressing up now! :)

There are some bothering thoughts but since I got up so early, I really want to be happy and make the best out of my day today. After my dental appointment which I've been dreading all along, my brother and I had to find some ways to kill all the time we had to before we could dine in this nice dining place, overlooking the most beautiful view in the heart of the city!

While he was walking around in the bookstore,this time nothing interest me at all. So I've decided to resume to my comfort seat, one of the corners of this bagel shop,to enjoy my music and sing along. Time flies and before I realised, he was standing right in front of me reminding me that it's time to go. We successfully killed 2 freaking hours!!!

Lunch wasn't good because the service was too disappointing. After that, we walked to a bigger shopping complex, another shopping haven! We went to the bookstore, again! I know life isn't all about books so I went to my favourite corner :) Hallmark! Seriously I dont know what I was doing the entire time. I walked every corner of the place for the next two hours trying to distract myself from all the self reflection and I really needed. Until the point when I realised it was probably my 3rd time walking past Memory Lane, I nearly got myself a few soft toys!

Nevertheless, when I finally decided to take a rest, I sat there quietly reflecting on my priorities over all my concerns. It wasn't easy because all the time, I knew I was avoiding thinking about it while I could still be here to enjoy a bit more. It didn't take very long to know what my foremost priority for the next one year would be... July 2010. I know I will definitely hit the bull's eye this time. If you want to know, you will, in 2010! :)

*the end*

As for now, (#1) staying focus, is the most important thing. No matter how tough this might be, regardless of all the sacrifices that may seem unworthy now, nothing is more important than confidently pursuing this dream of mine. Like it or not, I've got no control over how all these friendships are gonna change in the next 13 weeks. Thus, (#2) to not fear the unknown by courageously embracing changes as positive inspiration is as important.

Saying these is so much easier than doing! I might be really struggling but suffering is optional. :)

"True and lasting happiness only and always comes from our own efforts, our own wisdom, our own good fortune. This is a fundamental truth. Faith is the key to strengthening our efforts, wisdom and good fortune; SGI activities are the key to strengthening ourselves."

I'll always remember this one encouragement which has got me into all these thinking. For I believe, and I will paint, this winter, to be another beautiful masterpiece of my very own. :)

A moment like this...

as much as this hurts, :) I can now understand what "no pain, no gain" truly means.


If I have to fall 10 times to realise what was wrong, I am willing to stand up the 11th time to do it right again. Ever since last night, I felt like I've fallen so deep into this well which feels like it's been a million years of darkness.

Somehow, winter has always been the SEASON that I feel so much and strongly about things. Confronting them, Challenging my weaknesses and Redetermining over what I truly want in my own life. and the time frame this time, is gonna be a year. ONE YEAR. The question is no longer - CAN I MAKE IT? but DO I WANT IT?

Yes I really do...

Enchanted :)

Today, has been another interesting day of my life. :) I finally rekindled with my lost love! A form of dance that I haven't done for the longest time of my life since I left primary school! I fell in love with it again when I mastered it once more! I remember the last time expressing my movements this way, despite the pain, there was a lack of elegance to it... This time however, I made it the way I've always wish I could! With that fulfilment, it gave me a sense of happiness like never before. It was like my very first playground moment! It was very much like lying on the ground in Roma Park last winter, gazing high up upon twinkle twinkle little stars! For once, I felt truly carefree being who I really am, as always, a child at heart :)

Compelled by fascination, the highlight of the moment was filled with more laughters than you could have ever imagined! Little things like that may mean nothing much to many, but to a girl who did not grow up with much interestingly happening events, every single moment as such means a whole new chapter to her, adding to the treasure chest of memories!

Another upcoming trip this weekend, with her loved ones would definitely be memorable as well! :)

the one moment

I am missing those moments of joy and fulfilment which I want to feel once again... If only I could speak my feelings... :)

If I were a boy....

things would have been very very different!

Tonight, I had a chat with multiple friends over different window. I was just, in need of hahaha companion? A talking one. Chatting one. Or whatever you call that. :) It's been a long time, but i had some fun over chatting since the last time i did it!

Since I am always closer to guys, it feels so comfortable and very natural to strike a conversation with a guy! So when 4 guy friends happened to drop a hi are you ok kinda message, we chatted happily! lol at least i really enjoyed the conversation! :)

So WS and I was talking about love and relationship. About guys going after girls. Well halfway through, I realised that, since I am always so close to guys, then perhaps, meeting the right one would be a tough one! *lol* and the conversation went on with questions overflowing from one side to the other brooding over the psychological aspects of the underlying mechanisms fo human brain whenever love struck!

Sleepiness kills! and i'm defeated by it already!

Jya, oyasumi nasai~! :)

Malaysian Delight

This very trip home is definitely very different from my previous trips home. :) I am extremely delighted over the fact that I am truly enjoying my stay here, pampered like a princess with all the food I am getting. Previously, most of the time was filled with meeting people. I am sick of eating Zanmai at MidValley Megamall! Every time I am there, people just want to eat that! Well I guess that's because of its reasonable price for the food you're getting! I would really like to have some Italian Food, either Italiannies of Delicious! :) I just love Italian food if you haven't already know!

These are some of my favourites!!! :)

Malaysian Roti Canai / Roti Telur [ RM1 / RM1.20]



Malaysian Kuih muih



年糕 - RM0.80 per piece



年糕



Malaysian Fried Cempedak! [RM0.80]


It's so yummy! :)



I can't get enough of this!



Local Fruits in Malaysia!



Mangosteen aka Manggis! :) *my favourite*



My other favourite - Rambutan!



Mouthwatering :)



I love this :)



Mangosteen :) [RM3.00/kg]



Coconut drink! [RM2.20]



Air Kelapa :)

That concludes my food of the day! :) More yummy food to come... :)

somewhere over the rainbow...

It's been a long time since I've laughed and smiled till my cheeks hurt! :) but it makes me happy! it's the kinda happiness that no words could describe. Although I dont want to meet many people this time round, there is a few people whom I am dying to meet. Don't ask why. I just want to meet them. Two whom I've not met for a year, and one whom I've not met for more than 2 years! :) One down, two to go! ^.^

After all these days of HOME QUARANTINE, i am really feeling bored! Nevertheless, :) the gathering yesterday, was refreshing! I was surprised meeting 3 new people over lunch with the other 4 over an interesting discussion regarding the new media. It was unexpected, but great! :)

Till today, I've not really spent much time with my family. Staying at home with all my members isnt exactly the kind of "spending time with family" that i've expected. :) Can't wait to go out and have some good food with them. Going around with my brother. :) That's what I really want to do. Instead of going out meeting all my friends for the sake of meeting them because of the fact that I am away and am back this time, is meaningless really. At least at this point of time. I felt like I don't even have enough time for my family...which makes me not want to spend so much time meeting other friends.

I really wish that everyone of my friend is like JS. The feeling of being able to connect despite the distance, is so unique and special. Everytime when we talk, it feels like I could just talk without having to finish my sentence because you could easily understand me by completing it for me. I want more friends like you... :) but the truth is, everyone is unique in their own way that no two people are alike! As the cherryblossom meets the next peach or damson...the tale continues!