Things have never been this difficult. But I am learning to cope with it, again :)
Lately, I realised that the people whom matter most seem to be further and further away from me. My family members are already far enough, beyond my reach. But friends whom I've felt so comfortable with, making me feel so complete with them around, are eventually leaving too...
Sometimes I wish that at least one would stay behind. Just one. :) because knowing that someone is always connected to you, and is there for you whenever you need someone around is so comforting. Who doesnt feel that way? :) I believe everyone does. That's probably why people would love being attached. But I am not even asking for that yet, all I needed, or wish to have are friends that would stay. Perhaps I've always have the best people around me and now... things just need to change and I am again, presented with another challenging circumstance to maintain these friendships...
It hadn't been easy. Since I came. I've been going through my life, sharing it with so many different people who mattered so much to me. Having change from one to another, and then to another.. i don't know how much more I could/would want to take it this way.
The truth is, I have a tendency to live it, to the fullest, embracing them with all my heart, and it's hard to let them go when they should be leaving. That is the selfish part of me. But having said that, I am clearly aware that it means so much to them to move on! the new opportunities... the new challenges and new environment. :) If i were in their shoes, I would have been very much looking forward to that to.
MJ said that I am expressive.. and no doubt I am. :P
