The Tale of a H1N1 patient

It's the holiday again and great, I am sick AGAIN. I know. You must be wondering how the hell I got sick again after the H1N1. I initially wanted to blog about my H1N1 experience since so many people was curious about it (months ago)... In case you DID not know, yes I was one of the first few that were tested positive on time to be treated like a princess in the hospital! :) lol i think no one is interested now really. Anyhow I'll just let the pictures tell you the story.

#1. free ambulance ride!!! let this be my first and last ever!

#2. The driver was driving so fast!

#3. Arriving the hospital! :)

#4. Doctor playing as an astronaut! :)

#5. Doctor ? Astronaut!

They changed the entire plastic each time they attend to a different patient! Wasting resources. No wonder now we have climate change! -.-'' How wasteful! but I guess that's HYGIENE!

#6. 6 MEALS A DAY!!! *beam*

Some information for patients in the isolation ward. If you can read, we should be eating 6 meals. But they lied to us. -.-'' Lazy Malaysians!

#7. My corner!

#8. My bed for 4 days 3 nights!!!

#9. Tamiflu!!!

Tamiflu - the 10 dose we needed. A minimum of 6 dosage is compulsory before we're allowed to be discharged from the hospital.

#10. My first few meals... Sadness!

#11. My favourite fruit! :)

Belimbingku tersayang. I love Starfruit...but I never thought I would have it in the hospital

#12. My food! O_O

Look at the rice and vege...how pathetic. It's tasteless, probably because that's healthier?

#13. Fish? Yeah right... -.-

Some kinda Malay style of cooking the fish. Sour Fish? I actually like it because I've only been having porridge before this.

#14. Western delight

On the LAST day, the doctor asked us if we like our diet. Obviously NO. It was then she recommended us to change! -.- to western! So that explains this VERY YUMMY CHICKEN CHOP! Can't believe my first western meal is also in the isolation ward of this government hospital.

#15. Instant noodle moment :) i love those quiet moments

#16. My change upon a request to buy ***

#17. Finally... i am going home!


#18. FIRST CLASS WARD!? *LOL*

Overall it was an amazing experience. I was glad to actually be immuned over H1N1 for a while when it got worse after I recovered! :) I am not proud of it, but I am glad I was not a victim of it. It's another reminder for me, perhaps a stronger one this time, to truly cherish my health... for I know that, next time, might not be as lucky as this time. For those of you who have been so worried, I told you not to, but still. =) thanks for your concern! Wherever you are, I know you all did care. Sorry if I had you worry too much. Thanks for loving me for who I am.. In return, I promise to live well and live an absolutely amazing life with the greatest possible happiness!

With Love,
Princess Jasmine II (from Aladdin!)

A Series of Unfortunate Events - The Recipe to Happiness

Today is not a good day. Back in those days, I realised that I was highly resistant towards a lot of things. But that was probably because I was partially in self denial. You know? the extreme of optimism or otherwise extreme case of learned helplessness! You've probably figured out what that means. Precisely as its name says, it means that you've learned to be helpless in whatever situation you're in, especially when you realise life is beyond your control.

I knew precisely why it happened. Well maybe not precisely, but I know it's a sign. I know it was meant to demotivate me as much as I don't want to give up. Just yesterday, I was really determined and resolved to achieve certain things in my life... towards my dream...one day!

As soon as I felt strong about it, terrible things happened! This month, has been a series of unfortunate events. Sometimes, things are so bad that I don't even want to talk to anyone about it. I thought it would be fine and I know as long as I can embrace all these as part of my life, it would be. But...

Sometimes, we all just need to express ourselves. To be someone we truly are. I am really feeling tired of things. So tired that I want a break. A break from being who I wasn't... I want to be able to admit that things aren't right, and it's absolutely fine. When things aren't going smooth, you just need some time for yourself, to think through things, and then start anew again...

I don't want to sound offensive, but I really hate it when people foolishly think that they can't be happy everyday. That is, ONE PLAIN STUPID statement for stupid people. I know I should be compassionate but screw it. That's my belief and if our beliefs are just so incoherent... then forget it. I dont want to bother correcting people like that, but till I have the compassion one day again, I would continue dwelling on polishing my own life.

Also, it's funny how people always try to be someone else when they should really know all they need to be, is to be the best of themselves. I get so sick of things like that, which I really shouldn't be bothered. I've had enough. and seriously enough of all these terrible things. It does make me sad, but it shall never be longer than a day.

At this point, after writing this whole post, even though I didn't precisely state the cause or the series of unfortunate events that I've just experienced, I actually felt a lot better. Perhaps this is why I was often encouraged to focus on the causes I am making, not the effects I am experiencing. Because I believe in the law of cause and effect. Precisely - the simultaneity of cause and effect. That's why, often, it's how you choose to react that really trigger the subsequent reaction chain. :) I'm ready! To excel again! I know I would because there is no way that I would give up this! Not now! *free hugs*

I hope that each of you will realize success in your respective fields, fully recognizing that success means not giving up halfway but resolutely pursuing the path you have chosen. To this end, it is also important that you realize that the place where you work is a place for forging your character and growing as a human being. By extension, therefore, it is a place for your Buddhist practice, a place for practicing and deepening your faith. When you view things from this angle, all your complaints will disappear. No one is more pathetic than someone who is constantly complaining. [Daisaku Ikeda, Daily Encouragement - Tuesday, Sept 15 2009]

Food x Food = Fat

Lately I've had terrible cravings for Malaysian Food. It's really heartbreaking at times, to want it so badly yet you know you'll never get the authentic one unless you're home. There's no place like home, indeed.

Last week, I was writing an essay which I was so reluctant to even spend time doing. Suddenly I realised that I wasn't happy doing any of my subjects this semester. I tried liking them, but there's no way I could.

Anyhow, time flies. Summer would be around soon... while everyone is happily having fun despite the heat, I would be busy hunting for a place again! -.-'' I wish I could be home having my favourite food, with the company of great friends around :) I wish I could have the entire 3 months this time...really.

I want to be able to shout out loud, telling my friends that "I AM COMING HOME!" when I finally get my air ticket! Sigh, till then, I'll keep myself happy with food recipes!