Happy Birthday Babe!

It's absolutely normal if i ever love myself more than anything, some people think that's too narcissistic but if you do not love yourself, no one would love you. So there really should be a balance between too selfish and selfless!

Ok...so my birthday is coming up and I am honestly having so much trouble settling on one item that I am eventually going to get for myself. Finally, I could buy myself something, with my hard earned money and I would really love to get something, :) I truly LOVE. hee...

Often enough, I think too much and before coming to the point that I know what I want, I simply satisfice over the choice and just pick. So yes... I reckon I should write it here to help myself make a better choice and not like people would read this anyway...

Alright so... i was thinking.. of... getting.. heee

ok i shall not reveal here. otherwise people start judging me thinking i want them to get for me! i will mmm if i m ever in the mood to write again, i'll write what i end up buying for myself!

till then...

love,

live in the moment

Things I realised at work is really amazing. Ever since I started working, I began to appreciate life, a lot more than ever. Somehow, there seem to be lots of time spent on my own too. Though weekends are spent with my friends, and my twin, who's leaving for good soon, I have to admit that it did feel rather, ... inside.

I wanted to be able to write again. Like 5 years ago.

Writing about what I felt about the things I see in life. That kind of passion for life. the passion to be able to enjoy the happiness around me. but recently, these few years, I've been losing it. slowly...

and before i forget, let me write this down.

last week, a young girl came to the office to look for her mom. it was just one of my colleague's daughter. seeing the interaction between the girl and her mom, reminded me of my own mom. i miss her. i remember going to her office when i was just a little girl. saying hi to her colleagues and enjoying the "praises" despite knowing how good i look without them saying it, i miss sitting at her desk, watching her work, reading the paper or just going to the playground across her office, a playground of food and shopping paradise, i miss that place, suria klcc. how nostalgic. thinking about it now, made me realise i wont be seeing lots of people soon. i want to meet you. just want to really really meet youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :(