Happy Birthday Babe!

It's absolutely normal if i ever love myself more than anything, some people think that's too narcissistic but if you do not love yourself, no one would love you. So there really should be a balance between too selfish and selfless!

Ok...so my birthday is coming up and I am honestly having so much trouble settling on one item that I am eventually going to get for myself. Finally, I could buy myself something, with my hard earned money and I would really love to get something, :) I truly LOVE. hee...

Often enough, I think too much and before coming to the point that I know what I want, I simply satisfice over the choice and just pick. So yes... I reckon I should write it here to help myself make a better choice and not like people would read this anyway...

Alright so... i was thinking.. of... getting.. heee

ok i shall not reveal here. otherwise people start judging me thinking i want them to get for me! i will mmm if i m ever in the mood to write again, i'll write what i end up buying for myself!

till then...

love,

live in the moment

Things I realised at work is really amazing. Ever since I started working, I began to appreciate life, a lot more than ever. Somehow, there seem to be lots of time spent on my own too. Though weekends are spent with my friends, and my twin, who's leaving for good soon, I have to admit that it did feel rather, ... inside.

I wanted to be able to write again. Like 5 years ago.

Writing about what I felt about the things I see in life. That kind of passion for life. the passion to be able to enjoy the happiness around me. but recently, these few years, I've been losing it. slowly...

and before i forget, let me write this down.

last week, a young girl came to the office to look for her mom. it was just one of my colleague's daughter. seeing the interaction between the girl and her mom, reminded me of my own mom. i miss her. i remember going to her office when i was just a little girl. saying hi to her colleagues and enjoying the "praises" despite knowing how good i look without them saying it, i miss sitting at her desk, watching her work, reading the paper or just going to the playground across her office, a playground of food and shopping paradise, i miss that place, suria klcc. how nostalgic. thinking about it now, made me realise i wont be seeing lots of people soon. i want to meet you. just want to really really meet youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :(

as random as ever

I've never really said this ever before, but now i really do want to say...that,

I am...

indeed...

OFFICIALLY MISSING YOU! :)

I just love that song so much, have been listening it to it since Oct and usually I couldn't listen to one song more than 2 months, this is probably the first. hopefully the last.

the expressive side of me.

Things have never been this difficult. But I am learning to cope with it, again :)

Lately, I realised that the people whom matter most seem to be further and further away from me. My family members are already far enough, beyond my reach. But friends whom I've felt so comfortable with, making me feel so complete with them around, are eventually leaving too...

Sometimes I wish that at least one would stay behind. Just one. :) because knowing that someone is always connected to you, and is there for you whenever you need someone around is so comforting. Who doesnt feel that way? :) I believe everyone does. That's probably why people would love being attached. But I am not even asking for that yet, all I needed, or wish to have are friends that would stay. Perhaps I've always have the best people around me and now... things just need to change and I am again, presented with another challenging circumstance to maintain these friendships...

It hadn't been easy. Since I came. I've been going through my life, sharing it with so many different people who mattered so much to me. Having change from one to another, and then to another.. i don't know how much more I could/would want to take it this way.

The truth is, I have a tendency to live it, to the fullest, embracing them with all my heart, and it's hard to let them go when they should be leaving. That is the selfish part of me. But having said that, I am clearly aware that it means so much to them to move on! the new opportunities... the new challenges and new environment. :) If i were in their shoes, I would have been very much looking forward to that to.

MJ said that I am expressive.. and no doubt I am. :P

passionfruit jasmine tea!

:)

I've just received the most long awaited ...

Can't wait to write more about it if everything comes true.

Till then,

have a great time!

love,
jasmine tea

speechless

A random week...

- tired of writing
- sleepy most of the time
- encountered people who is so uneducated abt the art of listening.
- most uncomfortable exp in uni cafeteria.
- finding the motivation to write happily.
- going to take a nap.
- thanks bye.

Memories of 2 NOV 2009

Yesterday was the Birthday of my best friend Yun and the awesome dude which has made a whole lot of difference being an inspiration in the past few months, Jon. For many reasons despite my hectic report writing schedule, I want to remember this always to be reminded of the precious bonds of friendship in this past few months, thus I am again, scribbling my way through here right now.

Here goes the full story - including moments behind the scene :) i am writing this as a reminder to never forget how each and everyone has made a difference throughout the whole process.

My hsemate and I, both are friends of Yun and Jon and we would both like them to have an extremely memorable time of their lives in this very special Birthday occasion of theirs. The original plan was meant to be a simple surprise dinner for both, which was then not possible. The number of plan changed we've gone through, was an incredibly long story. Nevertheless the final plan 1 was to have a birthday dinner with Jon before we head to the airport to pick up the Birthday Princess as a surprise along with (our version of) "banner" and what not, the most precious (yet invisible) Tiara (of love) we've gotten for Yun.

The dinner plan somehow ran later than we've expected thus, a change of plan to a backyard surprise came up. Due to some unavoidable miscommunication with some of the important people of the night, the surprise was not possible hence, we've informed Yun to be home for a cut-cake and sing-song session after their dinner...Up to this point, a lot of dialogue sessions took place to clear up various misunderstanding caused by various reasons which was nevertheless pleasant (I HOPE!)

As we arrived at Yun's place, the Ling, Hoi, Yi and I happened to be the first few to arrive so we've decided to sneak into Yun's backyard and possibly try to surprise both Yun and Jon. Personally, I really felt very sorry for Jon because if the plans were have been done more properly, he wouldn't have appeared to be like the slave of the night going around helping to get things running for Yun's success surprise birthday when in fact, he too, is the Birthday boy. ANYWAY, long story short...

I was extremely pleased that the girls were so willing to always be prepared for an unexpected spontaneous plans. The four of us, hid behind the side of the backyard trying to light up the candles and sing a birthday song to both of them INSIDE the house. I personally really did not want Jon to be part of the surprise singing for just Yun and make him feel any less special because to me, they both, are as special. :)

Even though they have figured out and could probably tell it was very silly to use the backyard plan again, but I felt so fulfilled standing there by Ling and the girls as we sang them the birthday song. I was really really happy yesterday night. At one point, I think I could just sleep on the comfy red couch at Yun's place due to the lack of sleep in the past two days but seeing the happy faces with their giggles throughout the night, the ambience is just the most perfect one ever!

:) at the end of the night, I realised that what matters isn't how smooth it all goes as your initial surprise birthday plan but how delight everyone felt as the whole. I can't emphasise more how important every single one who was present has made so much difference last night. It wouldn't be possible without any one of them.

the highlight of the night, was when we asked Yun to wear a white shirt with RANDOM alphabets in which she was trying hard to figure out if those words even made any sense. I made her stood in front of the window to be able to see her own reflection in order to find out what the alphabets really meant. and she did. stood there for a few seconds before I jumped from behind to reveal what it was all really about...

as soon as she figured out, she turned to me in tears and next, we're both in tears. no one could tell what really happened but we both know that it was the most memorable moments of our friendship today. Yun and I have been through a lot, together or not, we've shared so much to the extent that sometimes, we couldnt even really describe our bond in words. But the connection that we shared, was so true. I knew it right away last night as we embraced each other in tears. From that moment, I instantly know that.. our friendship would never changed no matter how things would be. Even if we've not been truly connected verbally for the past few months, when you have strong connection with this person, it would not change the bond unless your heart changed...

happy birthday, 2 nov babies...

to blackle with <3

Recently i found out blackle via an interesting course. :)

Perhaps we should all start spreading it! It's really cool. You must check it out!

If only everyone start using this, wouldn't it be cool?

with love and thanks :)

It's interesting how tonight, when i was "online" and tried chatting with a few people, I can kinda tell who's really true and who's not. Ok, i know we shouldn't judge but sometimes by the sorta tone people are talking to you, it's clear how they don't want to connect...

It's been some time that I actually want to talk to people online. Truth is, if you know me, or if you sit beside me and put a camera to monitor what i do, i rarely rarely chat online. It's kinda becoming like a tool for me to connect whenever I need. Note: need.

And I am glad I have friends living along the same street who's always kind to lend a hand and walking out 5 minutes away just to get me take-away dinner. Lately, I appreciate this sorta help more and more. Back then, getting food is pathetic enough but now, getting people to GET me food, is worst. But really, I really appreciate their sincerity and willingless in lending a hand.

Whoever you are *hugs* love you dearly! Especially my evil twin and Denise :) there are such great friends. :) half my sisters really! I am truly fortunate!

you're not the "queen" of my heart

I have never felt this SICK of being sick. Seriously, for the WHOLE week of my break... I was pretty much in bed sleeping. When I was so terribly sick, all I was doing was curling up like a ball though the weather was burning hot outside!

I dislike the feeling of loneliness -.- who likes it anyway.. but I enjoy the times that I am alone. Lonely is when you feel empty but times when you're alone living your own life with a clear purpose is definitely not empty, hence not lonely. :)

It's nearly 1000 days of my stay here in Australia! and so many things have changed since I first came. We grow as we learn about life and realise what's important to us at the end of the day. For me, I've learned so much and began to really know what I want for myself... all these discoveries all along has definitely not been wasted. :)

I don't want to comment much about how others haven't changed much like I do. I don't expect them to change but at least really listen to my thoughts and understand where I am coming from. I thought they really do. Little did I realise they were faking it, so much. Please, wake up. I can't be bothered wasting even 5 minutes if you could never understand what exactly LISTENING is.

Honestly, i don't feel pitiful even if I don't have a mountain of friends behind my back... Friends are important to me, but I don't need more than one if none is ever really true. I've been rejected when i was young... and probably that's why I cherish the ones I have now even more than I often care.

Sadly, sometimes... your most trusted ones are the ones who never really understand you as much as you've shared so much of the similar experiences all along. The ones you've always look up to with trust and respect. The ones that have taught you the way to be a greater person... also the one who wipes you off their memory when you began to really grow as a person.

That's why...

I don't really care anymore...

I'll live my life and you can live yours.

The Tale of a H1N1 patient

It's the holiday again and great, I am sick AGAIN. I know. You must be wondering how the hell I got sick again after the H1N1. I initially wanted to blog about my H1N1 experience since so many people was curious about it (months ago)... In case you DID not know, yes I was one of the first few that were tested positive on time to be treated like a princess in the hospital! :) lol i think no one is interested now really. Anyhow I'll just let the pictures tell you the story.

#1. free ambulance ride!!! let this be my first and last ever!

#2. The driver was driving so fast!

#3. Arriving the hospital! :)

#4. Doctor playing as an astronaut! :)

#5. Doctor ? Astronaut!

They changed the entire plastic each time they attend to a different patient! Wasting resources. No wonder now we have climate change! -.-'' How wasteful! but I guess that's HYGIENE!

#6. 6 MEALS A DAY!!! *beam*

Some information for patients in the isolation ward. If you can read, we should be eating 6 meals. But they lied to us. -.-'' Lazy Malaysians!

#7. My corner!

#8. My bed for 4 days 3 nights!!!

#9. Tamiflu!!!

Tamiflu - the 10 dose we needed. A minimum of 6 dosage is compulsory before we're allowed to be discharged from the hospital.

#10. My first few meals... Sadness!

#11. My favourite fruit! :)

Belimbingku tersayang. I love Starfruit...but I never thought I would have it in the hospital

#12. My food! O_O

Look at the rice and vege...how pathetic. It's tasteless, probably because that's healthier?

#13. Fish? Yeah right... -.-

Some kinda Malay style of cooking the fish. Sour Fish? I actually like it because I've only been having porridge before this.

#14. Western delight

On the LAST day, the doctor asked us if we like our diet. Obviously NO. It was then she recommended us to change! -.- to western! So that explains this VERY YUMMY CHICKEN CHOP! Can't believe my first western meal is also in the isolation ward of this government hospital.

#15. Instant noodle moment :) i love those quiet moments

#16. My change upon a request to buy ***

#17. Finally... i am going home!


#18. FIRST CLASS WARD!? *LOL*

Overall it was an amazing experience. I was glad to actually be immuned over H1N1 for a while when it got worse after I recovered! :) I am not proud of it, but I am glad I was not a victim of it. It's another reminder for me, perhaps a stronger one this time, to truly cherish my health... for I know that, next time, might not be as lucky as this time. For those of you who have been so worried, I told you not to, but still. =) thanks for your concern! Wherever you are, I know you all did care. Sorry if I had you worry too much. Thanks for loving me for who I am.. In return, I promise to live well and live an absolutely amazing life with the greatest possible happiness!

With Love,
Princess Jasmine II (from Aladdin!)

A Series of Unfortunate Events - The Recipe to Happiness

Today is not a good day. Back in those days, I realised that I was highly resistant towards a lot of things. But that was probably because I was partially in self denial. You know? the extreme of optimism or otherwise extreme case of learned helplessness! You've probably figured out what that means. Precisely as its name says, it means that you've learned to be helpless in whatever situation you're in, especially when you realise life is beyond your control.

I knew precisely why it happened. Well maybe not precisely, but I know it's a sign. I know it was meant to demotivate me as much as I don't want to give up. Just yesterday, I was really determined and resolved to achieve certain things in my life... towards my dream...one day!

As soon as I felt strong about it, terrible things happened! This month, has been a series of unfortunate events. Sometimes, things are so bad that I don't even want to talk to anyone about it. I thought it would be fine and I know as long as I can embrace all these as part of my life, it would be. But...

Sometimes, we all just need to express ourselves. To be someone we truly are. I am really feeling tired of things. So tired that I want a break. A break from being who I wasn't... I want to be able to admit that things aren't right, and it's absolutely fine. When things aren't going smooth, you just need some time for yourself, to think through things, and then start anew again...

I don't want to sound offensive, but I really hate it when people foolishly think that they can't be happy everyday. That is, ONE PLAIN STUPID statement for stupid people. I know I should be compassionate but screw it. That's my belief and if our beliefs are just so incoherent... then forget it. I dont want to bother correcting people like that, but till I have the compassion one day again, I would continue dwelling on polishing my own life.

Also, it's funny how people always try to be someone else when they should really know all they need to be, is to be the best of themselves. I get so sick of things like that, which I really shouldn't be bothered. I've had enough. and seriously enough of all these terrible things. It does make me sad, but it shall never be longer than a day.

At this point, after writing this whole post, even though I didn't precisely state the cause or the series of unfortunate events that I've just experienced, I actually felt a lot better. Perhaps this is why I was often encouraged to focus on the causes I am making, not the effects I am experiencing. Because I believe in the law of cause and effect. Precisely - the simultaneity of cause and effect. That's why, often, it's how you choose to react that really trigger the subsequent reaction chain. :) I'm ready! To excel again! I know I would because there is no way that I would give up this! Not now! *free hugs*

I hope that each of you will realize success in your respective fields, fully recognizing that success means not giving up halfway but resolutely pursuing the path you have chosen. To this end, it is also important that you realize that the place where you work is a place for forging your character and growing as a human being. By extension, therefore, it is a place for your Buddhist practice, a place for practicing and deepening your faith. When you view things from this angle, all your complaints will disappear. No one is more pathetic than someone who is constantly complaining. [Daisaku Ikeda, Daily Encouragement - Tuesday, Sept 15 2009]

Food x Food = Fat

Lately I've had terrible cravings for Malaysian Food. It's really heartbreaking at times, to want it so badly yet you know you'll never get the authentic one unless you're home. There's no place like home, indeed.

Last week, I was writing an essay which I was so reluctant to even spend time doing. Suddenly I realised that I wasn't happy doing any of my subjects this semester. I tried liking them, but there's no way I could.

Anyhow, time flies. Summer would be around soon... while everyone is happily having fun despite the heat, I would be busy hunting for a place again! -.-'' I wish I could be home having my favourite food, with the company of great friends around :) I wish I could have the entire 3 months this time...really.

I want to be able to shout out loud, telling my friends that "I AM COMING HOME!" when I finally get my air ticket! Sigh, till then, I'll keep myself happy with food recipes!

sweet wishes...

#1. If I could, I would take a stroll with someone (random pick of random friend at a random moment) /something I truly adore (a cute doggie, or a HUGE one) along the river, at 11pm... that would be scary yet nice :)

#2. Perhaps it's nice to call up a random person whom I've not talked to, to just say HI!!! :)

#3. Cook a feast, pack lunch boxes... and deliver it to the most unexpected people I would have ever wanted to cook for, and take a picture of them (their reaction) and with them! :)

#4. Surprise one of my friend, with a random yet meaningful gift :)

#5. I miss the star gazing moments some long time ago in Roma Park :) It was so beautiful! I wish I could do it again, with a group of people.

#6. One day random tour - take the bus and see where it stops, have my quiet moments with the nature snapping pictures, and talk to one person along the street :)

#7. Put on my most stunning dress with a pair of matching heels and salsa(as if i know how) all night in the most beautiful park I could find, then walk without my heels under the rain while singing my favourite tunes :)

#8. If I could be granted one wish for real now... I just want them to know, they are my best gifts in life. :) each and every single one of you. :) i love you, more than words can describe. :)

Smile of the day!

I saw some random bumper sticker on facebook! It's really kinda late now but i need to do something to take my mind off certain things. SO, here I am. Random stickers. :)

#1. Unless you've lived my life, don't judge what I do, how I do it or why I do the crazy things I do

#2. Cute is when your personality shines through your look.

#3. The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for him with no intentions of catching her.

#4. The greater your capacity to love the greater your capacity to feel the pain.

#5. How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.

#6. We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go we take a little of each other everywhere.

#7. The hardest thing to say, is the easiest thing to feel.

Love,
<3 me! :)

love is in the air!

Love is strange, it's simply irresistible and desirable!

It's just like how I love my random cravings for food like you!

from winter to spring

This would be note to always remind myself over my determination... I don't want to forget this and therefore, I am writing this...

Waking up as early as 6am in the morning is definitely so not me if you know me well enough. Many would be surprise to find me awake so early because unless I am extremely motivated looking forward to something that awaits, or I am burning the midnight oil, I would have slept through the countless numbers of alarm clocks.

With two days remaining, this would probably be the EARLIEST day I've gotten up in the past 20 odd days of my holiday back here! Anyhow, happily I put on the dress I've picked for the day. Since I am leaving already, I've picked all the dresses in which I wanted to wear for the next two days! After 20 odd days, I am only dressing up now! :)

There are some bothering thoughts but since I got up so early, I really want to be happy and make the best out of my day today. After my dental appointment which I've been dreading all along, my brother and I had to find some ways to kill all the time we had to before we could dine in this nice dining place, overlooking the most beautiful view in the heart of the city!

While he was walking around in the bookstore,this time nothing interest me at all. So I've decided to resume to my comfort seat, one of the corners of this bagel shop,to enjoy my music and sing along. Time flies and before I realised, he was standing right in front of me reminding me that it's time to go. We successfully killed 2 freaking hours!!!

Lunch wasn't good because the service was too disappointing. After that, we walked to a bigger shopping complex, another shopping haven! We went to the bookstore, again! I know life isn't all about books so I went to my favourite corner :) Hallmark! Seriously I dont know what I was doing the entire time. I walked every corner of the place for the next two hours trying to distract myself from all the self reflection and I really needed. Until the point when I realised it was probably my 3rd time walking past Memory Lane, I nearly got myself a few soft toys!

Nevertheless, when I finally decided to take a rest, I sat there quietly reflecting on my priorities over all my concerns. It wasn't easy because all the time, I knew I was avoiding thinking about it while I could still be here to enjoy a bit more. It didn't take very long to know what my foremost priority for the next one year would be... July 2010. I know I will definitely hit the bull's eye this time. If you want to know, you will, in 2010! :)

*the end*

As for now, (#1) staying focus, is the most important thing. No matter how tough this might be, regardless of all the sacrifices that may seem unworthy now, nothing is more important than confidently pursuing this dream of mine. Like it or not, I've got no control over how all these friendships are gonna change in the next 13 weeks. Thus, (#2) to not fear the unknown by courageously embracing changes as positive inspiration is as important.

Saying these is so much easier than doing! I might be really struggling but suffering is optional. :)

"True and lasting happiness only and always comes from our own efforts, our own wisdom, our own good fortune. This is a fundamental truth. Faith is the key to strengthening our efforts, wisdom and good fortune; SGI activities are the key to strengthening ourselves."

I'll always remember this one encouragement which has got me into all these thinking. For I believe, and I will paint, this winter, to be another beautiful masterpiece of my very own. :)

A moment like this...

as much as this hurts, :) I can now understand what "no pain, no gain" truly means.


If I have to fall 10 times to realise what was wrong, I am willing to stand up the 11th time to do it right again. Ever since last night, I felt like I've fallen so deep into this well which feels like it's been a million years of darkness.

Somehow, winter has always been the SEASON that I feel so much and strongly about things. Confronting them, Challenging my weaknesses and Redetermining over what I truly want in my own life. and the time frame this time, is gonna be a year. ONE YEAR. The question is no longer - CAN I MAKE IT? but DO I WANT IT?

Yes I really do...

Enchanted :)

Today, has been another interesting day of my life. :) I finally rekindled with my lost love! A form of dance that I haven't done for the longest time of my life since I left primary school! I fell in love with it again when I mastered it once more! I remember the last time expressing my movements this way, despite the pain, there was a lack of elegance to it... This time however, I made it the way I've always wish I could! With that fulfilment, it gave me a sense of happiness like never before. It was like my very first playground moment! It was very much like lying on the ground in Roma Park last winter, gazing high up upon twinkle twinkle little stars! For once, I felt truly carefree being who I really am, as always, a child at heart :)

Compelled by fascination, the highlight of the moment was filled with more laughters than you could have ever imagined! Little things like that may mean nothing much to many, but to a girl who did not grow up with much interestingly happening events, every single moment as such means a whole new chapter to her, adding to the treasure chest of memories!

Another upcoming trip this weekend, with her loved ones would definitely be memorable as well! :)

the one moment

I am missing those moments of joy and fulfilment which I want to feel once again... If only I could speak my feelings... :)

If I were a boy....

things would have been very very different!

Tonight, I had a chat with multiple friends over different window. I was just, in need of hahaha companion? A talking one. Chatting one. Or whatever you call that. :) It's been a long time, but i had some fun over chatting since the last time i did it!

Since I am always closer to guys, it feels so comfortable and very natural to strike a conversation with a guy! So when 4 guy friends happened to drop a hi are you ok kinda message, we chatted happily! lol at least i really enjoyed the conversation! :)

So WS and I was talking about love and relationship. About guys going after girls. Well halfway through, I realised that, since I am always so close to guys, then perhaps, meeting the right one would be a tough one! *lol* and the conversation went on with questions overflowing from one side to the other brooding over the psychological aspects of the underlying mechanisms fo human brain whenever love struck!

Sleepiness kills! and i'm defeated by it already!

Jya, oyasumi nasai~! :)

Malaysian Delight

This very trip home is definitely very different from my previous trips home. :) I am extremely delighted over the fact that I am truly enjoying my stay here, pampered like a princess with all the food I am getting. Previously, most of the time was filled with meeting people. I am sick of eating Zanmai at MidValley Megamall! Every time I am there, people just want to eat that! Well I guess that's because of its reasonable price for the food you're getting! I would really like to have some Italian Food, either Italiannies of Delicious! :) I just love Italian food if you haven't already know!

These are some of my favourites!!! :)

Malaysian Roti Canai / Roti Telur [ RM1 / RM1.20]



Malaysian Kuih muih



年糕 - RM0.80 per piece



年糕



Malaysian Fried Cempedak! [RM0.80]


It's so yummy! :)



I can't get enough of this!



Local Fruits in Malaysia!



Mangosteen aka Manggis! :) *my favourite*



My other favourite - Rambutan!



Mouthwatering :)



I love this :)



Mangosteen :) [RM3.00/kg]



Coconut drink! [RM2.20]



Air Kelapa :)

That concludes my food of the day! :) More yummy food to come... :)

somewhere over the rainbow...

It's been a long time since I've laughed and smiled till my cheeks hurt! :) but it makes me happy! it's the kinda happiness that no words could describe. Although I dont want to meet many people this time round, there is a few people whom I am dying to meet. Don't ask why. I just want to meet them. Two whom I've not met for a year, and one whom I've not met for more than 2 years! :) One down, two to go! ^.^

After all these days of HOME QUARANTINE, i am really feeling bored! Nevertheless, :) the gathering yesterday, was refreshing! I was surprised meeting 3 new people over lunch with the other 4 over an interesting discussion regarding the new media. It was unexpected, but great! :)

Till today, I've not really spent much time with my family. Staying at home with all my members isnt exactly the kind of "spending time with family" that i've expected. :) Can't wait to go out and have some good food with them. Going around with my brother. :) That's what I really want to do. Instead of going out meeting all my friends for the sake of meeting them because of the fact that I am away and am back this time, is meaningless really. At least at this point of time. I felt like I don't even have enough time for my family...which makes me not want to spend so much time meeting other friends.

I really wish that everyone of my friend is like JS. The feeling of being able to connect despite the distance, is so unique and special. Everytime when we talk, it feels like I could just talk without having to finish my sentence because you could easily understand me by completing it for me. I want more friends like you... :) but the truth is, everyone is unique in their own way that no two people are alike! As the cherryblossom meets the next peach or damson...the tale continues!

Quiet Moments

It's probably time to update this abandoned page~!

Haven't been doing much but will definitely enjoy this break. Rather busy to get some things settled before I could really enjoy much. It's funny how I don't really want to connect to people who are dying to connect with me and want to connect to people whom arent that interested to connect. Not in every circumstances, but in some particular ones lately.

Right now, i just want time for myself. :) All the time in the world, for myself~! Until I...

inspiration of the day

"It is important to keep the promises made to friends. This is the true meaning of friendship. To become people who can do so, however, we must first learn to keep the promises we have made to ourselves."

Happiness and Peace

Happiness and Peace

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Feelings

Spending 2 years in Australia did not seem to have much of an impact on me until I began my 3rd year. Being a psychology graduate, who then decided to go into Business for Postgraduate for a change of field, I am contented with this very decision that I've made. Decision making, is undeniably an important part of our daily life. More important than that, is to make a decision with wisdom and not fear. Reading Anthony Robbin's book on Awaken the Giant Within, has giving an entire new perspective to what Believing in Your Potential With Courage truly is. Unless you've read the book, you would not have understood my feeling of understanding the profundity of this simple yet significant concept. :)

Every single day, is a fresh new day for me. I've never felt so happy waking up every day since the day I left my home country. It was not homesick, nor was it boredom. I think, for some time, I just totally lost that. Optimism. This brand new semester, entirely new course, has opened up a wonderful path for me. Making new friends have never been so easy. Perhaps I was just not very approachable back then but taking the first step, to talk to acquintances again, to develop that friendship has been challenging, but i can proudly now say is very fulfilling. You will be surprised reading this, but I've had so many more friends in this semester alone, compared to the PAST two years I was here!

When you're ready to open up once again, you'll be amazed to see how your relationships with others can take a great turn. Recently, I decided to do something random! Very random. Ever since i started blogging, you got no clue how many blogs I've ever own... I never drop a single comment in any random blogs, or even in blogs of people whom I know. I was just too afraid to be judged. The only blog that i've really commented was probably Sarah's one, because we're so close! I guess all bloggers to some extent felt the same. But i was just way too paranoid... Funny right? Anyhow, after reflecting for some time, I find it truly pathetic. The "worries" I had stemed from my lack of self confidence which I was totally unaware of.

I remember a long conversation with a friend who commented on self confidence. Somehow, I realised that, being true to yourself requires courage. Hence, I was determined that I want to be confident with myself, with what I feel, what I think and regardless of what others may say or think of you, you're still able to believe in your actions, and of course, the action that you're making!

Somehow, I was glad that I had the courage to do that. Yes, to drop comments around. To me, it's a new found courage. ;) I want to be able to connect to the people again. At least try, to connect? slowly...

The funny sensation...

Tonight I am suppose to be studying for my papers tomorrow. As you know, I can get distracted pretty easily when it comes to studying...so i decided to allow myself some free time, to refresh my brain. And funny enough, I ended up reading blogs. It's not any kind of random boring routine meaningless blog, but one filled with courage to speak yet humorous! For once, I couldn't help laughing reading those entries again. It was really lol funny, but only those who understood the intention of the piece would get the humour! Had so much fun that I didn't want to stop...but back to studying!

Sweet Surprise!

The best feeling in life, is when you are surprised by the most unexpected people. Two nights ago, when I got up near to midnight, my housemate came home, just back from the Sydney Training Course with a pleasant surprise!

For once, I felt like the happiest girl that evening! =) She probably would not be seeing this, but once again, I wanna thank her for that very sweet and thoughtful thought! ;) It was such a pleasant surprise that warms my heart leaving me with smiles and giggles all night long! It's one of the best surprise I've ever experienced in my life...

All about Sex

The title is indeed so deceiving. Initially I wanted to post up all the pictures from SEXPO held in Brissie Convention Centre early this month. However, I am pretty lousy when it comes to the poladroid thingy that Shuzie introduced me a few months ago! If only I could manage it nicely, I would have posted some... but if you're interested to know about SEXPO before even I post them up, lol just google them...

Otherwise, all pictures taken during SEXPO would be up, soon! 18SX...

Random News

High School Musical Sweetheart

I couldn't believe that Zac Effron and Vanessa Hudgens the High School Musical love birds are engaged. Oh well that's their life anyway but it's getting very common that people are engaged/married at a younger and younger age.

According to The Times,

Zac Effron proposed to girlfriend, and fellow High School Musical star, Vanessa Hudgens during a trip to Japan in late January sources have told the National Enquirer."Zac is relieved to be out of the pressure cooker, because Vanessa’s mom has been putting serious heat on him to make an honest woman of her daughter,” the insider claims."She is old-school and doesn’t approve of Vanessa living with Zac without some type of wedding promise. "Zac really loves the current arrangement. He adores Vanessa, and they gel really well together. Gina [Vanessa mother] already considers Zac part of the family, so she’s happy that he proposed."

The New Approach of a Decision Making of one's life

I personally find it rather disappointing to find that people are giving up on their lives easier and easier as the years passed. This very one news that made it on CNN left be pondering if people are have truly lost their confidence in making decisions for their very own life. CNNIt's sad living a life allowing others to tell you what could be done instead of making that decision for your own. The entire article was up on CNN a few days ago and I found out through my housemate and find this issue worth pondering on.

On a side note, Uni is starting tomorrow, and I am definitely...=) Looking forward to the brand new start!

Delicious Desserts

Delicious is indeed a nice place for Western Cuisine. Honestly I was craving for many other food but the same boring Japanese food that I've had. I have to admit that this trip was not the best one probably because I've spent it way too much with friends than family. But from now on, I would be focusing more on spending time with family. =) I really would like to make more time to spend it with my family for my next trip back because I actually really enjoy these precious time together. As for friends, I don't think I wanna make so much time for them anymore.

I find that, in the past years, friends kinda became my priority. Maybe it was that time of the teenage years that friends come first then family. I even remember spending so much time during the weekend for extra activities than with family! I think I've really had enough of that. I really want to make up those time and spend more time in my family with my parents from now on.

I kinda felt pressure this trip back. Pressure to meet as many people as I could. I know at the end, I didnt manage to meet most of them. I guess next time, lol I should just throw a party to meet people. Easier that way. Meet all at one go. Of course, I still want to make time for some close friends to catch up with them.

Somehow I do feel nice being back here. It's those feelings of tranquility. I do feel calm and serene here. More peaceful in many ways. Not to mention, with lesser friends around, just the right amount to keep my social life balance, it makes me feel complete and great. I feel happy because I don't feel the need of meeting people because they think I am around and I have to meet up. Lol I guess this is the downside of having such a HUGE social network. At some point, you feel that everyone was as important but really, you do actually know who you want to meet and who not.

This dessert post has ended up totally outta topic but I shall just end with these pictures brought to you by Delicious' Delicious Desserts.

None other than my favourite,
Lemon Meringue

Little Penang Kafe

The one thing that I absolutely LOVE about Malaysia is the food. These 4 weeks has been too short to savour all my favourite food. I have been eating a lot not worrying about gaining weight because I absolutely love the way I look right now. It's not like I need to diet very much but I believe my life in Australia would eventually help me in cutting down on food intake.

On my first week back here, I went to try this out. Despite it being so so so expensive, because we were craving for authentic food, we went ahead with it. Layout doesnt look 100% good but I am lazy to do much for now. Leaving for Australia in like...2 days! Am gonna miss all these so much...

: : Updates : :

With everything that happened lately, I don't quite know what to write. Politics are so screwed up. Not in the mood to comment much. CNY does not really feel like one lately, due to some personal issues. But still trying to enjoy my time here in Malaysia. Still got 2 weeks. Pretty happy about it. =) Family time family time... I love my family but never really showed it in my action. Seriously, family is something that you should never take for granted. Never! because it would be too late when you start regretting. Though on one hand some people said, It's never too late, but on the other hand, I felt that it's often too late when you realised it. Let's change topic... I miss my favourite cake.

Lemon Meringue for my 20th and 21st Birthday in Brissie!

Streamyx

in Malaysia is too slow for anything.

It's been a wonderful 2 weeks! =) I wish I could post some pictures but due to the connection problem, I just really, could not... post anything yet. So, apologies for that. Hopefully soon! =)

The Truth behind My Summer Love

made me feel as if the tunes of The Seventh Night of July conducted by Casey has just ended with a fermata...

On my first afternoon home, I had all my prawn cravings dimsum in this nice restaurant... After that, I couldn't believe I actually spent 3 hours in Kinokuniya. At the end of my stay there, I finally allowed myself to buy, one book! =) Just one! which I think it's a pretty good thing. To not be greedy. This is because I know that this very season would be the only season I would engage in so much of reading, as compared to the 3 other seasons...autumn, winter and spring.

I am currently reading, Once I was a Princess by Jacqueline Pascarl. I strongly believe that they've ban this book here, in my country. I have no evidence that this is the case, it's just a feeling I supposed. By I went to check out and they're not selling this book anymore.

To be dead honest, I am very disappointed to how close-minded this nation is. Thanks to the constant reminder of how certain issues are not meant to be discussed and often labelled as SENSITIVE which I personally think shouldn't be the way, most youths are either unaware or couldn't be bothered over things that had happened/ is currently happening.

As much as I would like to discuss this book openly, I rather not risk anything here. I am halfway through the book but as I read, I have lots of opinions toward how things were dealt with. =) I am looking forward to meet someone who've also read that, to share my opinions openly. I think I am missing those intellectual dialogues...but will soon engage in some!

Till then, happy CNY.

:: The Prelude ::

My student visa has finally been approved! YESTERDAY!

My life in Australia has been somewhat a mystery in the past two years. That's why I've decided to blog here. Well, quite a hassle but it's a way to really keep in touch I suppose. For my friends to be able to be part of my life despite the miles apart! The truth is, I'll be here for another 2 years for my studies. So there you go. I know it might sound kinda sad to know things via a person's blog when you can actually chat with the person.. but I am not a very MSN person. I prefer writing. Email has been somewhat uninteresting in a way. It depends but generally, no. Blog would perhaps be a better solution, so here I am trying this out.

I really don't have much to say at the moment, except ... I need some book vouchers. ANY. Borders, MPH. Popular. I want to buy some books with the cheapest deal I could get. Lately, I've been spending time reading in Borders, killing some time happily. If you just happened to know any cheap book deals, kindly drop me a comment? Deeply appreciated! =)

Happy Chinese New Year!

:: Boxing Day ::

Shopping on boxing day is something that I've always been looking forward to. Though shopping is not really a very healthy culture but at times, it's really fun! =) Waking up in the morning has been very difficult since I last woke up early. To my surprise, I was actually able to wake up so early to catch the one of the earliest bus to the city. The crowd is simply amazing.

The queue at the cashier at 9am when the shops just opened, is unimaginably long! In the arvo, shopping with such crowd is just too exhausting for me. Nevertheless, I managed to grab quite a lot of stuff. Not just for me, but for my beloved BROTHER! =) I've got quite a lot of stuff for you, though u insisted it's OK! Brother, you know how much I love buying you things!

Haha, luckily I only have ONE brother. =) I hope he'll buy me tickets to Sound of Music/ Les Miserables~ I love that one!

Thanks to Shu~ =) I am updating this one. No motivation really... but I miss her sitting on the couch with her korean songs playing. I miss those times when I could just greet her with lots of talking whenever I am home! =) I am sure she's doing pretty good now though...

Enough said... enjoy the pictures! Brother, i hope you're reading this!

My favourite Elmo shirt is finally on sale. Finally!
I am still very much of a T-shirt and denim skirt/pants kinda girl!

This is so lovely! =)

I've got a matching necklace/chain to it! @_@

I'm a normal girl too. My 3rd pair of heels in my entire life! =)

Shu, I still love this one very much! =)

Bro~ this is for you, you better fit into it well! @_@

I really think it's a bit big but it should be ok...

You have to see this! 100% cotton!
My bro loves and only wear 100% cotton!

From cotton on... as long as there's a cotton word to it =)
it's cotton! *i presumed*

All for you!!! =)